I recently learned that my husband has been looking at pictures of partial & nude children on the computer. (all girls, preteen). He has a separate account "Main controller" of the computer. (I figured out his password) This was my final decision to leave him and report him. I now understand that he is manipulative, abusive and controlling. As I was making my plans to leave after the holidays something happened to me. Two weeks before Christmas, I am sure he drugged and raped me both vaginal and anal. It took me about 4 days to pull it all together. The signs were all there, just no memory of it happening.
The night it happened he was following me around being super nice. I was decorating for the holiday outside. I was going from the garage to the front of the house with a step stool then a ladder. He wouldn’t leave my side. He never shows concern about me using ladders or never helps decorate. That night he followed me like a puppy. He didn’t want me getting on the ladder, (even though he hurt his back picking up boxes earlier in the week.) Something he was never concerned with before. I poured a glass of wine I barely touched because I was outside and left the glass indoors. I only had about 2 sips at the time. I continued to decorate. I went inside, my cell phone rang, He looked at me with a quick panic when my dad called me on my cell, it seemed odd the way my husband looked scared when my phone rang. After a brief conversation with my dad, I needed to go pick up deodorant at the nearby drug store. He wouldn’t let me drive to the store by myself. I said “I had
two sips of my wine, I’ll be fine.” He said he wanted to go, he was craving candy and he insisted on driving my car.