It happened so fast. Two years...that's all it took for me to lose my mind. I feel stupid like it's all my fault. I haven't told anyone, not even my parents. I don't know what to do. I'm semi-suicidal and depressed. I block out all emotions except being angry at myself. I don't know what to do. I need and want help but don't know how to ask for help.

I do not know how to write this, but I will to show that there are still very good people in the world. I have read a few stories on this website and have seen that there are, at times, bystanders who will just let the act happen. That is not the case with me. My name is Anastasija. I am 17 years old and I come from Serbia. As a child, there was a lot of arguing and fighting in my family, so I did not get very close to them. I lived my life from day to day normally. I had normal issues, like boyfriends that yelled at me or abused my emotions in other ways. They often tried to take my virginity, and then it would end there. I was heartbroken when I met him. He lived 2 houses down from me. His name was Dmitri. He was a Russian immigrant. When it was my 17th birthday, he came to the party. I talked to him for most of the evening and I thought he was a very sensitive and understanding guy. He cared about me, or seemed to. We saw each other almost all the time, even though he was 18. He respected the fact that I wanted to be a virgin until marriage.

I am 5ft 5 and 22 year old white female. It was a hot day in New York central park , when I went for a run just before the sun was setting, I had a singlet and a short running dress on, I had a new sports bra and underwear!! The run normal takes 40 minutes , but today my life turned up side down, as ran though the park near trees, a man tripped me and I fell to the ground. He came to me with a knife and put it to my throat , he told me to be silence. A blindfold was wrapped around my eyes two to three times, he walked me a few feet though bushes . then he told me to take my clothes off.