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| Still hurt after 18 years |
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| Written by Linda | |
| Wednesday, 06 January 2010 | |
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I was raped 18yrs ago , I always though that i have buried this part of my life , little did i know that i was wrong , today after 18 yrs pain just came back , I realised that i never forgave my perpatrators , the first rape happened in APRIL 1992, I was walking home from school with my boyfriend , it was those rel;ationship that we had when we were 13yrs old , were there was nothing seriouse only walking each other home and just giving each other kisses on the chicks , no deep or french kisses were done then , i remember that we passed by a place with trees wich we normally used to pass , but that day things turned out different from what i was used too, he was 4 years older than me , we were in the same school , he started touching me , i asked him to stop but he didnt , he pulled up my school dress and i refused , he started beating me up with feasts on my face , I was badly beaten and Ieven had a little scar next to my eye as he was wearing a ring on his finger , then
he forced himself on me and he raped me , I bleeded as i was still a virgin , i lost my innocence , when i got home , they were shocked to see my face beaten like that , but i got too scared to tell them the truth , i took the underware that i was wearing that had blood on it and i burned it , i never told a soul,i never confronted him , i guess i was too scared, i felt dirty and thought that it was all my fault, i moved on with my life carrying that secret , the very same year SEPTEMBER the 02nd, as i was staying with my sister and her husband , my sister left without telling me that she was not coming back for the night , her husband came back around 2 AM tipsy but not drunk , he ordered me to take off my clothes as he wanted to check if i was still a virgin , i was confused and took of my clothes , he started touching my private parts and molested me , i couldnt carry the burden and i told my sister about it , he didnt deny what he to me in front of my sister , but my s
he chose to support her husband , this is still hurting me and emotionally eating me up, i need to come to a point were i can forgive completley and heal , i have been carrying this , i feel that it is more worse if the perpatrotor is part of the family , even though i dont see my brother -in-law as i have cut ties with my sisterbut i feel as if i now have the voice , I feel as if i can have guts and just confront both of them about this!!!!!! i neede to share my story , thank you for the website
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